First post on my new(er) blog:
Pretty pretentious blog name, eh?
Ah, well, you know I'm big on the truth....most of the time.
Truth tonight:
I should have phoned my dear friend, Melissa. I told her I'd call earlier this week, and I still haven't. She is pregnant. Her first baby. A wonderful reason to call. We'd have lots to talk about and a lovely conversation, no doubt. But I haven't called.
Sure, I could come up with a hundred excuses. But really, I coulda called.
So why haven't I?
It's like sex sometimes. I don't feel like it. I just don't. But then, I just decide to go for it...and I have such a great time! Why don't we have sex every day, I ask Jay! I love it so much!
But then days and days go by without doing it again.
Brutal.
And it's the same with phonecalls.
I'm not avoiding any of you. I just don't feel like it.
But I know that if I do call, I'll have a great time. I'll love it!
Hmmm....
How to motivate oneself to fuck and to phone?
Not at the same time, of course.
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4 comments:
fake it 'til you make it?
;)
We put so much of our energy into raising kids that at the end of the day it's hard to push ourselves to do something for us. One day the kids will move out - husbands and friends be prepared!! All that energy has to go somewhere... ;) Love, Luisa
fucking and talking, biological imperatives,...communication,...attempts at understanding
I know all about that and I feel the very same way. I think it has to do with never having enough time for yourself. Or enough downtime. If anybody even wants attention, grrrr.......
That famous lady said it all, I vant to be alone.....
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